My mind is running around five things these days. Yeah, I do use it you know (my head).
- I miss him… and that sucks because I will have to wait for 7 days before I get to see him again. School starts on Tuesday.
- Robi of PPBTEP didn’t bag the title… and I was like, dying for him to get it. *sniff*
- I took the exam for iWEB because I want to do something with my life other than sleeping, eating, watching T.V., browsing the internet, chatting, texting, etc. I want to be productive. Plus, I want to get my mind off things. I need a job. Period.
- I don’t know what to do with my application to Canada. Muy wants me to pursue it, the same with Daddy but… I really, really don’t want to.
- Leaving… Staying… I don’t really know what I want. Maybe Muy is right. I should never have gotten myself into a relationship with him. It just makes my leaving painful. The thing is, though, I love him… with all the frigging illusions and fairytale dreams of a ten-year-old.
All things for me these days boils down to one fear: the agony of not knowing.
